ARGH. I am feeling irritated and frustrated and rejected.

I really dun understand why i am not in attachment now. Everyday in school is a living hell. I am not exaggerating. My whole clique is in attachment. I'm the only one, now with the 3 @#$#$%$^% guys. Every morning i pray to God for favour, but i always seem to be bullied. If i'm not meek, then i'd become 1 of them. SIGHS. If i go solo then i'd be an outcast. If i chose attachment instead of hong kah i woulndnt be suffering now.

That was friday for me. I was in a highly irritably mood. I did not go to the outing late on purpose. My tuition got delayed by half an hour, total waiting time for the bus was 1 hour. By the time i met up with the 4 of you i was at the brink of breaking down. I couldnt be bothered to explain myself. ( thus only siang hui knows).

Sometimes i ask myself why do i care so much about some people when they dun really care and understand about me.

I think im quite weak in the inside despite my strong exterior.

All my pent up disappointment, disgruntlement are finally released. haha.