At times I really envy those who've found their better half, when you see the after glow on their faces and the joy they exuberate.

But I have to question myself. Why do I need a girlfriend now? Companionship? A sense of belonging? Or just plain insecurity. Maybe I just need to prove that I still have some charm left in me.

Whenever I speak of this issue to my closer camaraderie, they just pull it off by saying "in God's own timing " or, "you're too young" . I'd simply shrug my shoulders and say, "oh well."

Perhaps there is wisdom in those answers. I just have to ponder on it.

I don't want to sound too noble, but I believe in giving the best of myself to my future girlfriend. Thus, a raw diamond ore needs to be polished and refined before it's dazzling and stunning to behold.

This is me, a soon to be 20 year old guy on his short-sighted (superficial) views on what true love is.

5 years down the road, I'd just read this entry again and have a good laugh.

Chew on it!